Sometimes its better to remember the darkest night as the moment before beautiful sunrise.

The sun is coming up, I am having glass of water and a microwaved apple pie from McDonalds. The pie burned my tongue, it was only microwaved for like 25 sec but it came out molten lava. I spent the whole night working on my school projects it was allot of work but its done. Now the only thing I have to do tomorrow after a vampire night is draw three naked people from my head. It should not be so bad just I'll just skip all the weird bits and get the job done. I had a dream last night and in the dream My breath got described as venison which I thought was pretty funny. I slept allot today as if I was depressed but I don't feel down. I had great dreams, adventures and lived parts of lives I have always wished were true. I can't remember any of it now, only that at one time in my slumber my breath smelled like dear meat. Other things came to my mind today, weird moments in my life. Today I thought of someone I only crossed paths with once. I was working the night shift as a security guard in Norwalk Connecticut at an office building. Working the night shift you never see many people at all. But this night I saw a very pretty girl she had gotten hired at one of the companies that had offices in my building. She had things in her car she was clearly moving across country, and I was the first person to greet her to her new life. She looked nervous and excited, it must have been the big break she had been praying for. She came to her job before she even went to her new apartment which was around the block. She had a big smile and was very happy to see me. It stayed with me even now like 6 years later. Maybe it was because it was a very dark part of my life. during that part of my life I almost never took my eyes off of the black room with in my head, so a pretty girl with a smiling face couldn't exist even in a day dream. Such dark times, I seldom saw the logic in the direction I was traveling. I picture it as walking in the desert and all direction look the same. As I sat there reading the weeks random book, her smile came in like an oases in the desert. Seeing her reach the end of a chapter in her story. Her nervous smile, gave me hope that my own story might one day have more substance; not just walks in the dark, drifting days and working on a means to an end I did not want. I could see her happiness like a radiating aura 20 feet wide bright like the sun, she reached the end of her race. She got out of her car and I stood with in the very edge of her aura. Like a little miracle no one really notices but someday effect the entire world from its profound unseen effects. I am sure it happened different then the way I remember it. But I find it beautiful the way I see it now with in my minds eye. Sometimes its better to remember the darkest night as the moment before beautiful sunrise.