sfmoma sketches for class. and two randoms i like

You guys know I'm working on my masters of architecture. each week we have to go around down town San Fran and sketch famous buildings this week its SFMOMA. the art inside is bla not so great ny moma is so much better. :( i miss new yorks museums! but the build is pretty cool now that i have sketched it.





























the next two are just one from the train one night. that girl in the hood was sitting in front of me so i took a sneeky sketch. she was not dressed like that but she i did get that look from her. interesting looks always interest me. and the other is a random sketch from class. of a girl out of my head. have i told you i love wind swept hair hehe.

i was thinking about posting up some art just so this does not become a rant fest of a blog no one wants to read. lol not that i have more then three people who even know about this thing. but i just want to change it up. so here are some drawings and other randoms for your views.








this guy to the right is my first try at digital painting. and to my surprise still the best i have done so far lol. beginners luck i guess.

I drew this one a couple of years ago. I used to day dream back when i used to played golf of a sweet elf girl. lol man am i a nerd! but im a proud nerd :D well friends ill post more later. take it easy.

even as im older the grass in my yard still sucks. thats gotta change.

recently i have been thinking about relationships allot. This topic is not a huge surprise i have been single for like 4 years now. I admit I'm alone and lonely. Here I sit surrounded by family but i feel alone. I am 28 now and recently i started Grad school and moved across the country. some how i got pushed away from people. and after much deliberation among my mental faculty i think i might be the problem.

I dont smile very much. and maybe i look at people with a look in indifferent contempt. friends im sure you dont see this look. I have never seen it but my mom said she sees it when i dont pay attention. moms know best lol she said i give a look to tell people leave me alone i dont have time for you. and you know the look i think in my head it is more like waiting for people to come to me. or longing for friendship maybe missing my old friends back in ct or just thinking. or maybe its a mental grab at the familiar. funny im so winey today i have a pretty great life allot of people would love.

I have my health first and foremost. which alone should make any man or woman on earth the happiest person in the OR. But we dont think about that type of thing. Im a gypsy and its in my blood. i lived in the same place for years but my blood got the better of me and i started the life of a vagabond. I should have known that my life is not stable and safe. that would kill me. and I have always liked vampires and that sort of night people. now i really find my self with out color and really looking like one. sometimes i dont see the sun for days at a time the sun burns my eyes and skin. the other day i was in the sun for 10 mins and my body felt all numb lol weird. but the weird part is i miss it. even if from viewed from a window its still is nice. i really really need to learn to love the grass on this side of the fence.

Maybe thats life learning to love what you have and not care about what you dont. and to get a tan. well i dont think i have a choice. im moving to the land of tans. where is my 99 spf?

the sun and I are not friends and never will be

today, today was just one of them days that was planed out to the T.... Capital T. it was planned to be smooth as velvet, with a bouquet of smiles and good times with the back drop of a sunny day. but to say the least, the day was not like that at all. the sunny day was there but it was not the smile in the sky you drew as a child on the right or left hand corner of your picture. it was a searing hot sun of the desert that beats you down. the sun that does not give life but takes it with reckless abandon. being a vampire I should stop the cycle of madness where think I belong in the sun. I should know that the sun and iI are not friends and never will be.

the day.....

i ended up running out of gas. so as i type the car i was driving is out parked in down town SF. there is a big part of why today was shitty but im just gonna leave it out. i am try my best to just forget about that part. lets just say i looked pretty weird and creepy because i was trying to be nice. ehhh its my fault for being me. but its just the way im made.

no worries here i sit drinking large cups of coffee sitting back in the shade of a dark room. i have placed a crown no one can see on my head and the blank stare contempt in my eyes. i am Caesar.... for now.

but soon, the sun will set, the gas in the car will be filled and my pride will heal. i will trade the crown of gold for one of thorns and place kindness back in my eyes. I will take my place at the end of the table and not the head of the table and wait to be moved.

i am not made of glass, i will not break, do not handle with care!

hey hey hey. this means you. :D well here i am writing up me blog. today was a pretty good day i met some new people at school today. easy going nice people. i gotta tell ya guys its been very hard for me here in California i really dont understand people. recently i have really realized im truly an east coast guy. or maybe not so much a east coast guy just a nice guy. Nice guys i gotta tell ya, you thought you got shit on in the east. dam the fake ness just super powers each freakin punch. but no worries im not made of glass. im the dunpeal hunter babies. gotta roll with them. :D

lol random side track excuse me for a sec just lemme play me guitar! lol i think thats my favorite part of that song. but what song? hmmm

you tell me no... i say yes
you say cant... i say will
you say impossible... i say nothing is

i am being forge in the fire please bring logs and bring them often! :D